WiganDaveHi Rasputin,
When my wife died 4 yrs ago, she left a huge void in my life.
Not just the day to day stuff (ie going to sleep at night with your partner next to you - ditto waking up in the morning) but the 'Extreme' stuff that we enjoyed together.
She wasn't a Top but she realised that I was* a Bottom. Neither was she a Sadist - but she realised that I was* a Masochist. (* I'm still a Masochistic Bottom !) so we would have a'Bondage Evening' together from time to time. It usually involved a lovely meal at home for just the two of us - then me ruining the evening by committing a faux pas (eg spilling red wine onto the carpet)
"Clean that up, then change into the outfit that I've laid out on the bed for you" she would bark at me.
I cleaned the carpet then donned the 5" stilettos, Lycra thong, miniskirt, & see through blouse that was on the bed.
"Ooo, goody - you look so much sexier as a girl, Davina" she coo'd (as she tapped the riding crop in her hand against her thigh length leather boots)
"Take the bottle & glasses with you" she commanded, as she forced me into our garage. She hancuffed me, threw the hancuff chain over a hook in an overhead beam, then thrashed me. After a while she paused, to sip her wine. Then resumed - a cane , then a tawse were alternatives to her crop.
Being proud, I never begged for mercy. No matter - she was 'high' on Dominance & authority.
The evening usually ended when she got hold of the hair on the back of my head, pulled my head backwards then & straddled my face, thrusting her cunt into my mouth & face. She always orgasmed. I never did.
I have missed those S & M sessions, so I'm looking for someone to "fill in the void" !
Are you that someone?