Caucasian

Does not apply

I am a newbie (no experiences)

6' 0, 235 lbs. (Chubby)

Short Light Brown

Blue

I don't have glasses

40 - 50

Single Men

Internet
Phone
Meeting in person
Dating
Short Term Relationship
Long Term Relationship

Cyber Sex
Phone Sex
1 on 1 Sexual Relationship
Other Alternative Lifestyle

50+ married (up to now straight) man; sadly have not had sex with wife in two years, as well as not much in previous five to ten years; recently into heavy all consuming fantasies of sucking a man's hard cock, swallowing his load & possibly taking him up my ass and passionately kissing & cuddling with him. This has developed rapidly as I have discovered gay porn, which I love masturbating to climax' This has all manifested itself in the last month or so, but seemed to happen in stages. Maybe subconsciously gay for years, I'm not quite sure. I'm basically not an immoral person, but am sexually needy & wife seems no longer interested. Up until now, I've been very nervous about hooking up with the wrong man. I'm looking for someone to be very discreet, respect my virginity and be gentile and go at my pace, even though I believe I would have no problem sucking cock, as I REALLY have been getting into it. Swallowing a hot load will be a little more difficult at least at first, although I really want to like it. I probably can't take a huge cock at this point, preferring an average sized one. I'm also not looking for multiple partners, threesomes or any kind of orgies. I would definitely be up for hooking up semi regularly if both of us were happy with the results, but also crave a little passion on some level needing a little affection such as kissing and cuddling. I guess I have a strong female side, which is why I want to be a bottom.

hardlystraight has never gotten together with someone through a site like this before.
hardlystraight can not entertain at their home.
hardlystraight would like to meet at an I am not sure yet.
hardlystraight can travel up to 20 miles.

Ideally, I would probably text or email with him, maybe a few times to make sure we're both comfortable with each other. If so, I would probably meet in a public place no strings attached & get to know each other. If we both were compatible, I would probably flirt a little & decide when we want to get together. It would have to be at his place, as I can't entertain. Depending on the attraction, I can see us talking for awhile, smoking a cigarette or two and doing some flirting. I would love to passionately kiss & hold each other, strip down & I would love to initiate. I would gently tongue his balls & cock, put his balls in my mouth gently & start on him with my mouth, while jerking his shaft. MMMM, I can taste him now. I really want my first time to be special both orally & anally, followed by more kissing, cuddling & smoking. I hope this all doesn't sound too fetishy.